Saturday, July 08, 2006

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i'm like freaking bored. i like haven't blogged for ages. haven't really did up my blog. still left with the chatbox. i'm like too busy to put it up man. damn the thing. i'm so fed up. bleah. my blog is like so dead i know. oh wells. i so need to put my charbox up man. gosh now i'm in 3/4 already. i still miss my friends! all those from twothree!!! i miss my dear gretchie, bots, kim, pris, cheryl t, mich and all those from my class. bleah. oh and

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

thanks for all your gifts people. i love you guys! loads yeah. you guys rock my world yeah. god bless and take care. okay people? oh wells, peace. i so want a sunflower next year okay?! hahaha. i'm like so demanding. if i were to have a boyfriend i seriously pity him man. but that'll definitely not happen! cos i promise not to have one until my o levels are over. got to study hard first!!! and oh yeah i wish that dan will become osama bin laden! muahhhaa. evil me!

so... as i was saying. i have to study damn freaking hard. cos i wanna go to vjc. so many of my seniors did so freaking well man. so much preeure is exerted on me now. i also wanna do freking damn well which is quite impossible. i wanna get like 6 points! so i'll be able to get into vjc! gretch wants to go there too! how cool then both of us will be able to go to school together man. haha. join choir too! FUN FUN and FUN!!!!

oh and i'm going to zouk on the 16th for the underage party. boy i can't wait man!!! i seriously can't wait for the class challet too! so exciting!!! hahhas. i'm so looking forward to my sec three adventure camp. choir camp too! lucky me. i've got all the nice people in my group. boo you cher. good luck man! hahhas. kidding lar. i'm not so mean. yes i love my ego partner. i kow you love me too. i do understand. ahaha. i'm ego too!!! bleah. that's why we're partner. it all explains it! okay. i so got to go to bed now. oh and today's total defence day is kinda boring only a rasin bun and new water. bleah. so gross. anyways. nights. take care! loves. <3

yay!!! i'm done with shopping. bought two wallets this time. one from roxy and another from billabong. got pretty much stuff. i'm really pleased! god when i was at the billabong station at the shopping mall and then three guys were like looking at the bikinis then put it on their chest! gross who ever on their sick minds will do that. puke! so i was staring at them in shock! then they just smiled at me. like wow. okay. that's no big deal. boy... the guys are so disgusting!god i gotta go recording now. damn it. not done yet. cyas later. anyways. MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPS! loves. may there be peace in the world. bleah.

i'm still in thailand. just 10 more days before going back to singapore again. boy, time flies! well, so far, i bought only earrings and dvd i guess. not yet shop for clothes yet. cos gotta get at least like 30 percent so i can get my roxy stuff and playboy too. haha. hopefully i get lucky enough!!! well, i still gotta practise playing the song before recording. my sister's bf is gonna help me play the guitar chords for only hope by mandy moore. i gotta play reflection by myself. god, my aunt's god son is so adorable thou he can't speak. oh wells, it's still fun. he just played with the keyborad. he thinks it's fun. madness. haha. really cute! yesterday was p'bell birthday. gretch!!!! i ate sharkfin soup and had abalone too!!! i'm kinda sick of sharkfin soup now. hahha. gretch you jealous??!!! oh. and also. hmmm... what else do you guys want from bangkok? tell me before i return to singapore okays people?! next week i'll be freaking busy with the recording. so tell me soon yeah?

"Rules of the game. Post 5 weird things or random facts about yourself.then at the end of the list ,5 names that are in line to do this . Dont forget to leave a comment 'youve been tagged' in their blog to read yours."


# i love all my friends. especially the WOLS family, kungfu fighters, choir, 2/3!!! almost all of them. they're my darlings.


# i really wanna be a singer. will do almost everything to be one. it's not because of fame but more of the hobby.


# my cousin's bf is willing to help me out with doing a demo in his studio then send to the record company. and i'm debating over it even after how much i want to be a singer. haha.


# i'm really noisy, chatty and all that. but i can be really quiet if i want to which is like really seldom.


# i'm always saying that i'm on a diet but i seem to be eating like ice-creams and sweets every second. wells, heck it the friggin diet!




THE LUCKY VICTIMS THIS ROUND :))
* MISS CHERLYNN ANG - MY DARLING :))
* BETINA SOH- KUNGFU FIGHTERS :))
* GRETCHEN LEE- MUMMY :))
* DANIELLE GOMES- GF:))
* MICHELLE HEAH- MOVIE PARTNER:))

oh wells. i haven't been shopping at all. i mean like seriously. okay. on 2nd of dec i went to watch chicken little. it's pretty cool. real cute! oh wells, i had french manicure too!!! i'm so pleased with myself. haha. i think i do need to pamper myself some how. it was like about 6 bucks only!!! so friggin cheap!!! but guess what it's all ruined already. wasted money on it. can't believe it man. oh wells, so on 4th dec, i went to the grand palace and some kinda emerald temple in bangkok. it was pretty amazing, will try to post the pics. awesome. it really is. then we went to the museum. oh that day was one day before father's day which is also the king's b'day. so almost everything is free. they were giving out free drinks and food. you know what's really weird? they were even giving free haircuts!!! god. banners hung up everywhere saying "FREE!!! FREE!!!!" hahhahah. so stupid! then, we went to the museum. some guys tried to be funny thinking that we are tourist. i mean we are but not really. so they were like stalking us and then asked us for the toilets. so freaking lame please. the next day i went to dream world!!! it was so fun. played the viking ship, rapter, rollercoaster, space mountain, big splash.... so many more. i was like totally wet. from head to toe!!! soaking!!! so fun. was playing like the whole day okay. god. so fun. there were students around helping out even. they were allowed to work for part time. so fun!!! i wish that in singapore it would be like this too. so yeah. lived at my aunt's big cool house! quite cool. anyways. i gotta go now haven't been shopping for days. will update you soon! loves pple. peace.

so here i am in thailand. wells, so far i didn't go shopping yet. the day when i arrived it was already like 3 sth, went to had dinner at like a jap restaurant cos it was my aunt's b'day. then, went to visit my grandma in the hosipital on mon. didn't go out shopping again! but i went to the shopping mall to like just look around and also to have dinner at there. aft eating i went to the arcade. boring man. was dragged by my sis lar! expected oh wells. so yeah aft we went to have ice-cream at haagen dainz. then yeah saw this actor. i never really noticed but yeah they told me. hmmm... he's not that good looking. kinda short but yeah he's caucasian. oh wells, too short!!! okies. so yeah today i went to my aunt's vila. god it's so awesome i tell you!!! huge!!! there's a lake behind even. gorgeous! i love it there. the toilet is huge okay. bathtub and everything. it like 2 times bigger than an average toilet. the master bedroom even have a walk in wardroom and a couch, bed, dresser and everything! beautiful i tell you man. i'm so freaking jealous!!! i wish it's my house. my cuz room is so freaking nice too! i'm so jealous! hahahha. went swimming today too at the house there too. more of playing with the water. haha! didn't get tan! was helping my cuz to wash her car too. it wasn't much clean anyways. then we had dinner near ther. it was really good. so full!!! haha. i can't wait for tmr! i so wanna shop! okies. i gtg. loves pple. peaace. take care! <3

i got into 3/4! yay! the class of my choice. really happy about it. well, went shopping today.
spend alot of money. feel real bad. i got 2 tops, one pants from esprit and a bag from roxy.
my mum wasn't so please but heck it. i deserve it i guess. hahaha. i watched emily rose with my frenz on friday. gretch, cher and mich. dan and pris didnt' dare to watch. so yeah we were saying that if we pass through this show we're gonna watch the fog. real cool. hahas. played table hockey too. it just rock! man. haha. got injured while playing. we were all so rough. okay i gtg.
gonna be watching goblet of fire on wed. the sneek preview! dan, gretch, mich, mush, geraldine, sis and me! gonna be real cool. can't wait. just another 3 more days! loves;)

2/3'05 rocks my socks!

i love twothree!!!! gonna miss you guys like HEAVEN! can't believe that the yr past so fast!!! just like a rocket like gretchen had said. i wish i had a time machine. so i can turn back time. back to sec one!!!! MAN... i feel like crying again. like what happen yesterday. almost everyone was so emotional. crying and hugging each other. so touching! the weather broadcast for yesterday was thunder, lightning and storm! real bad i believe, so we had to use umbrellas and stay under shelter. to prevent from being blown away and whatsoever. hahahahah. i know i'm being lame. but how can you blame me for being bored. anyways, i love all my frenz from two three! and we'll have an outing all of us somehow. maybe a sleepover if not a challet!!! i gtg now. bb. twothree'05 rocks my world. peace out you pple! take good care of youself. have a nice holiday. smuacks! <3

i'm just not feeling like myself. i'm feeling all so miserable. no longer a human.
i just wanna cry out real loud and i wish that no one would be able to hear me.
i feel like going to the beach and then shout real loud.
i really do hate myself for being too resilent in certain matters.
but sometimes, i just give up too easily.
i'm too inconsistent.
i hate my fucked up life.
most of all myself.

i wanna suffer alone. all by myself without getting anyone around me to get hurt further. and i mean everyone. just want to bear all my responsibilities and suffer silently in torment.

hey. finally... my exams are over. i feel really relax now haha. no more stress already. have been like going out for the past three days. but not today... haha. tmr i'll be going out again. yayness man. on tursday, i went out with dan, gretch, jess, pris, mel,lyn, cher.w. we had sushi haha. too bad we didn't screw up the com. cos we couldn't order thru it this time. sigh. haha. so yeah went to arcade at cineleisure. haha. we played table hockey. really fun. was kinda violent. but yeah. haha. we were all perspiring like hell and feeling hot. first time i really had fun. then we went to coffee bean and chill out. not much shopping thou. how saddening. then on friday, i went to p.s watched skeleton key. really exciting. storyline's pretty cool. oh wells, i bought a choker. 14 sth bucks man. not so cheap but heck it. will be going out with dear clara tmr. SHopping!!! can't wait. didnt' do any proper shopping. gtg.

hey i got another blog too. it's www.lifeissosweetwithoutyou.blogspot.com
but don't worry this one is still in use. i was just like really bored so yea.
pple out there can link me on that too. :]


haha i know i'm very bo liao. gtg now anyway do my hw!!! bb take care!!!
i'll blog after the exams!!!

bye my blog!!! i shall not blog til like when the exams are all over. i shall try to put away everything that distracts me at the moment. stop going online, friendster and all the other crap!!! i'm gonna study like hell starting from today onwards!!! i shall not slack already!!! 2 more weeks to the first paper to my finals. ENGLISH. *sigh* maybe i'll fail. i know i did not fare very well for my d&t exams too. what to do man. i can't change what has been done already. all i need to do is to stay focus and concentrate. determination and perseverence!!!! i shall practice that now!!! good moral values!! haha. ok i gtg now. bb. Sayonara!!! people wit for me yea to update you guys with the latest juiciest gossips in town. haha. right. take care.

all the best to the other sec twos for the streaming!!! hope that you guys will get into the class you wanna!!! love ya. <3

i guess i'm like gonna say bye to this blog. cos' i'm trying to study really hard for the exams. sigh. poor me and all the other sec twos. gotta study like hell just to get into the science classes!! there's only like three science classes if i've not mistaken. stress man. so hard to get in already. even worst. we got scholars coming in to our school too. that makes it even harder. sigh. i'm like so damn stress man. crap.

haha. actually i've got science remedial now. but, i missed it. crap. gotta go on friday's one instead. cos we didn't even know that it starts at 2.15pm not 2.45pm. so yea. haha. oh well, during the whole week of the holiday i was like staying at home all day. studying, doing homework and also tuition!!! except that i have ipw to keep me real busy!!! but, at least i gotta go out on saturday for the choir concert. so yea. not so bad after all. actually it's like bad. haha. those who knows about it. SHUT UP kaes? cos yea, i trusted you guys so i told ya!!! LOL. but trust me. it's so damn scary. haha.

yayness man!!! i'm gonna get new pair of glasses! guess it's frameless. it's about 170 bucks!! so ex man! just bought like boxes of contacts!!! mum's like screaming her head off!!! it's all costing her a bomb!!! haha. too bad man. she has me. a very expensive child. LOL. joking people. you don't need the puke bag!!! oh i met this guy with super nice tan in the tp library!!! so cool man. haha. i love jon johnson!!! not forgetting all my good crappy frenz!!! you guys know who you are!!! *sigh* so bored man.

i'm not going to the b.e.p concert!!! i'm like torturing myself. cos i didn't do well for my ca. thou i'm like allowed to go. *sigh* i think i'm really mad man. haha. i wanna go but yea. going to abstain!!! must study like a mad person and yea go studying with cher, mich and all at the library at tp or maybe somewhere esle at times. so won't get bored!!! haha. i know i'm like so loserfied. sorry whoever you are for not turning up at macs today!!! LOL. even if i were to go i'll bring my DAD along. haha. i learnt that from some loser. :D dan and my other frenz you'll know who i'm refering to!!!

goshes. i guess i've like blogged even to repent for not blogging for ages. like really ages. LOL. hmmmm.... crazyness man. happy belated birthday to you GRETCH and CHRISTINE!!! you guys are 14th!!! finally!!! haha. wishing you all the best in everything you do. and also god bless!! take care dearies!!! i'll get you guys pressies!!! don't worry!!! sigh. so much to do. so little time.

i've not decided on my confirmation name yet. hmmm... i really want a guy's name in my fullname. it sounds kinda cool. but i don't know what name to choose. what about beatrice calvin tan??? haha. funny!!! god. or beatrice ashton tan??? haha. can't make up my mind. god i'm like thinking too far!!! it's still like 1 year more to confirmation. i'm so crazy. but yea, nevermind. got a longer time to choose!!! haha. anyways i gtg now. bb. take care pple!!!

WOW. ok i haven't been blogging for like years. haha. ok it's too exaggerated. actually, i've not been blogging for about like more than two weeks. ok. that's a record man. cos' i've been really busy lately. studying because of the god damn ca. god, ok. i actually studied. like WOW. ain't it amazing? so yea, i've been very stressed out. study, study and study. ok, not so bad actually. talk to friends and yea school. HOMEWORK, OH HOMEWORK, I HATE YOU. YOU STINK! haha. i'm so proud of myself. really. tmr is like a really busy hectic day for me. choir in the morning. then afterwards gtg to cher's house to do sci project. sigh. but at least can keep myself busy. better than nothing. god. today i went to town to de-stress. haha. went to far-east and ate chicken rice. god. it's a friday. i've sinned once again. god forgive me. haha. during each ca i place the card on mary's pic on my table. hoping that she'll whisper the answers to me. lol. lame. guess it kinda works. thou not all i know. haha. i have to go now. *sigh* so sad. cheers people. peace out!!! :)

i'm finally done with the stupid eng advertisements...
did the whole damn script, print out the 2 copies of everything...
wow.... it's an achievement i guess... i know i'm pathetic... but i did my work...
god... now the group gotta thank me man... for staying up... to do this damn thing...
mrs stevens better give us good grades man... cos i put in alot of effort in this piece of work... don't wanna see it go down the drain... i'll just scream and probably burst into tears... i know i'm too dramatic... but this time... it really means alot to me man... lol.... wow... i knoe it's surprising that i actually care abut my work... kks... it's already late... gtg sleep now... tmr still gtg sch man... crap... wanna pon... but can't everythin's with me now... so yea... oh well.. that's about it... nitez everyone... love you all.... take care!!! ~beat :]]]

it's a sunday again.... wow.... this morning... i didn't go to church cos my mum got a very big prob man... i mean..... what's with her man... always get angry so easily... pms man... for sure... crap her... so yea... went for cath class as usual... lol... hmmm... thanks naresh for your pressie... it was really sweet of you... i like the stuff toy dog you got me... lol... it's cute... oh well... after cath class i went to meet dan at tp... she was late cos she fell asleep... lol... oh well.. so yea... we took mrt down to ang mo kio... to meet liting.. to go to cheryl's house to do our english project... i was late for mass... lol... super late... so yea... stood outside by myself... lol... then we went to my uncle's house for dinner... watched president star charity... MARION RAVEN ROCKS!!!!! thou it wasnt' that good when she sang that time... she still rocks... lol... i love marion raven!!! lol... okkk... i gtg now... tmr gtg sch... i want very much to pon it... but can't ca's are around the corner and my mum won't allow it.... lol.... nvm... take care...

i would like to say world peace.... riighhhttt... lol... ;)

today our whole family celebrated my grandama's b'day... wow... it was held at a hotel... all my relatives went to my grandma's b'day dinner... god... i got drunk once again man... i was like red... and then i started sprouting nonsense... got real high... started laughing for no reasons... do hot man!!!! lol... all my uncles, aunties and cousins were like "you're drunk."
guess i was... but still... lol... fun man.... was very hyper.... dinner was kinda nice... cos yea... we could see the fireworks real clear from the glass windows... so gorgeous man... i love it... god... so cool... we took lotz of pics too... so fun... go crazy... get high.... take lotz of pics... and get scolding from parents for drinking too much... it was like 13.5% of alcohol... red wine... the prob is that i drank too fast... cos i had to go up to sing... so yea... no confidence... so yea... took a big gulp of red wine and then went up... i was liek shivering like mad... shaking real hard... me, my sis and my two other cuz sang together "only hope" by mandy moore... lol.... hmmm... guess i screwed it up... cos yea... i thought it sounded crappy... but maybe i was just drunk so i was thinking too much over it... hmmm.... well... nevermind it... but then i felt much better after maybe 2 hours... went home about like 11 something again... and yea... gtg sleep asap... cos the next morning.... have to go to church so yea... gtg.... nitez... take care... lol....

friday's gone already... me, lyn, mich, cher and cheryl took a cab to cheryl's house to do the film thingy... then we change into our going out clothes for the film... it's actually not bad... lol... wow... all the make-up and stuff... goodness... and we had to re-take again... and again... so bored of it man.. but come to think of it... it's actually kinda fun... lol... yea... cheryl's maid prepared for us to eat "poh pia"... didn't eat it for like so long... yum yum... hmmm... i like cheryl's house man... it's big!!! then after we had to leave her house to go to lyn's house... cos she have to bathe and yea... so we took a cab again... me, mich, cher and lyn... cos we were like kinda late... so yea... we went to lyn's house... lyn's house is also nice!!! god... her parent's room is damn cool... there's actually a walk in wardrobe... i want that too!!!! lol... yea... so while waiting for lyn to bathe we actually explore her room.... nice man... lol... oh well... so yea... we hailed a cab again... to go meet dan... went to tp interchange... then mich and cher went home while me, lyn and dan went for the concert... before boarding the bus... we bought 1 stalk of rose each... mine was pink, dan's was purple while lyn's rose was red!!! nice... lol... we didn't even have time to go for dinner... so yea... we board 153 to go to sji for drama night... gretch and chris were already there when we went... lol... so yea... me, dan, gretch, lyn, chris and moses sat together... lyn's fren was that leading actor from sji eldds... hmmm.... i shan't say anything about it... i won't gossip... lol... so yea... we were like starvin... so hungry.... the concert was fun... the sji guitar ensemble conductor is funny... lol.... i like the song our eldds sing at the end of it!!!! "at the beginning" in that anastasia show... real cool... the harmony part... it ended about like 9.30pm... i saw *cough cough*... YUCK!!!!! only those who went with us knows... they are such a "cute couple" man.... really... so "good taste"... like wow... so meant for each another.... lol.... my dad waited for me at the canteen and yea... send lyn and dan back home.... when i reached ghome it was already like 11 something... kks... gtg now... sleep....zzzzzzzzz....

i'm like going insane... i'm mentally unstable...
went out for lunch with lyn, shar and dan after school at KFC...
yea... then after lunch we went to popular... cos dan got to get the board for her group for their project... actually dan wanted to show us the harry potter book that says that draco is already dead... like wow.... lol... but unfortunately, the book is like wrapped plastic... so yea... too bad man... lol... DRACO MUST NOT DIE!!!! that's what lyn said... but yea... i agree to it too...
cos he's HOT!!!! lol.... right... i mean ... he's kinda cool although he's bad...
don' you think so??? hmmm.... nvm...
oh well... so yea... i bought like 4 pens today... wow... it's like about 8 bucks altogether...
hmmm... going to drama night most probably... i bought the tickets!!!! lol....
don't care if my dad don't allow me... i'll go back by myself... it's possible... i can hire a cab or even take a bus... my dad's like an asshole... he still has my handphone...
crap man... he told me and my sis that he left our handphones in his office inside the safe...
like WHATEVER MAN!!! *rolls eyes with the my style of saying it with the hand*
lol.... lame... i know i am... so yea... tmr will be a super busy day cos after school will be going to film the ep thingy... then go to lyn's house bathe or something... then meet up with gretch, chris, dan and my idiotic sis.... then go to sji tgt to watch drama night... yay!!!!
so fun... i'm like busy everyday... lol... at last got something to do... better than nothing...
then, on sat... gtg to grandma's b'day party at a hotel that my father booked for her...
god... it's like gonna be so crapped up man... cos i seriously don't know what kinda songs i should sing man.... if i sing those kinda songs that we like... eg, simple plan... stuff like that... the elderly won't like it cos it'll be too "fast" if not too "loud"... then they'll get heartattack if not they'll get deaf... lol... whatever... i mean... i don't know any slow songs with positive meanings man... hmmm.... then what to sing... cos usually when it's those slow kinda song it'll be those very sappy kinds... the heartbreak ones... BORING!!!!! everyone will be like falling asleep man...
and we can't possibly do a skit!!! cos we have no time already man... never even rehearse man... like how???!!! god... i won't do anything... i'll just slack... enjoy the food... and music... the atmosphere... the wine... and everything... lol... hmmm.. ain't it the best idea???!!! lol... right.... i gtg now man... do my cme homework... haven't write a damn thing on it... lol.... crap... so dead can... lol.... take care pple!!! love ya lotz!!! Smuackz!!!<3, beat :]]]

crapp... me and my life... i'm so confused... i think i really need a counsellor...
god... i'm like slitting my wrist and my hand... wth is with me man...
and the lastest news... ok not really the latest...
MY FREAKING HANDPHONE IS CONFISCATED BY MY DAD!!! F***!!!!
god... i'm like going crazy without my handphone...
how to live without it man... i'll die seriously... and i'm dying now... painfully...
*sigh* i failed my english compo man... 9/30
crap her man... shit her.... F***!!!! F***, F***, F****, F*** and F***!!!!( too lazy to type more... but yea... wanna say it like forever cos i'm like so frigging piss with her.)
good news man... i got 31/50 for my chinese compo!!! like wow... ain't it?
cos i don't usually pass like that... lol... always 25 to 28... but wow...
can't help but feel kinda proud of myself...


reasons to why life sucks now
- i'm so confused, my heart is so messed up some how... so is my f***** up life
- i cut myself and sometimes don't feel a thing...
- my handphone is confiscated
- i have suicide thoughts according to my friends
- my results suck
- the ca's are around the corner and i haven't like study... still slacking
- i'm not myself...
- i'm like in a state of depression
- i'm on a stupid diet... that's lame

For you i'll die
*cher and dan- thnx for telling me that... i won't do it... pls keep it private and confidential
* kim- crapp!!! i need my hp!!!!
* pris- now you know about it... don't tell anyone...*shush*
* crazydude- i don't think we should...
* dad- you are so f***** up man...
* sis- you suck!!!!

sorry ok darling cherlynn???!!!
so sorry for calling you a bitch...
i apologise ok... don't wanna lose you as a fren...
oh yea.... during class me and kim very bad... kim hit the table real loud and i shouted,"FUCK!"
hmmmm..... funn... well i guess i'm really vulgar but yea... i'll try control....
ok i gtg do my hw haven't done a damn thing...
i failed chinese spelling... crap.... i got 5/17... well guess it's very usual.
i got 10/18 for english vocab test!!!! wow.... i passed it man...
hmmmm... i'm a genius... right.... lol....
take care pple... sorry once again, cher....

shop, shop and shop... that's what i've been doing...
but unfortunately, i didn't buy anything... wth...
have you ever heard of me not buying a damn single thing when i shop??!!!
like NOPE! crap man... seriously wth hell man...
right... dkny t-shirt= super ex+ ordinary...
guess how much can a freaking ordinary dkny t-shirt cost???!!!
it's 129 bucks man! wth.... it's so normal... just in red with the words dnky across..
god... this is crazy... at this rate i can never get any damn thing...
OMG! you know GUESS handbags are like 50 something bucks only!!!! 50% discount man...
and i only had like 50 bucks... crap... i was like holding it around... unwilling to let it go... pretending it's mine... lol... i know all my crap...
I DIDN'T BUY THAT FREAKING HANGBAG!!!
FUCK!!!! TOTALLY FUCKING SHIT!!!
sorry for being so vulgar... lol... sigh... all my crap... was like shopping around...
went to the children's section and saw this shirt from GUESS... it's like big enough for us to wear... only 26 somthing bucks... so CHEAP!!!! i didn't buy it again...
crap... my sis bought like 2 op skirts, one pink and another white one... and i got like NOTHING AT ALL!!!! BIAS MAN MY MUM!!!NOT FAIR!!!!
kks... i gtg now... tmr gotta go sch and i haven't done any hw at all... so dead can!!!! ;]
oh yea! HAPPY B'DAY DAD!!!!

today is the r. gym com!!!! so fun man... i enjoyed it totally man...
we won c division 1st!!! yayness... lol....
sec 1/1 gurls are so funny man... they asked this guy who's maybe like from npcc...
so we dared them to go up to the guy and ask him... " are you a police man... do you have a bang bang?" lol.... so funny man... anne went up to the guy and asked him that... lol... got it all recorded down on my handphone... don't worry... i won't put it on my blog... so yea...
and yea... my frenz dared me to go up to the guy and ask him if he could be my policeman... right... that's so retarded... i mean... of cos i dare to... but... so little money... and since that gurl already went.... i don't wanna do that then.... i thought it would be more interesting if you locked your arms with that guy and ask him... can i see your bang bang... sick but yea... lol... nvm...
it's so funny anyway... sec 1/1 gurls are so comical... so affable too... lol.... funny man... really entertained us today... oh yea... bcos of the milo all of us are like super hyper today... so much energy... too much... drank like two cups of milo... wow... and got so much energy already... scary... me and kim suspected that the pple spiked our drink... we are also like so high man... " 2/3, 2/3 , milk it, yea, milk it, yea! ohh lala!!!" hilarious man.... kinda sick too....got actions to it too... will be showing it on this year's netball carnival... all thnx to our brilliant minds... lol... gonna show case it to like the whole entire whorld man... funny... but super gross man... lol.... we should teach our other fellow classmates man... so cool... oh yea... the last part was like so pathetic... cos like all the other girls from our school have left... after the gym girls performed... so yea... only like 7 frenz left to cheer them... and it's like we are so loud...shar's screaming is loud!!! so sharp... god... we took stupid photos like those ah lians... lol... funny... lol... went back at like 7 sth... late... my mum scolded... i gtg... byee for now... love ya... take care!!!

today is like my b'day... i'm finally 14!!! hmmm... let's see...
i went out for lunch today!!! at pastamania our usual...
i guess if it's not for us pastamania the one at tp will just wind up their business for sure...
i mean it man... we go there ever so often and buy so much stuff... so ex... but nvm...
so yea... btw... cher.a, cher.t, lyn, pris and dan celebrated my b'day with me...
awww... how sweet.... gretch couldn't go cos she got dance. kim's like grounded and shar got dental appointment... so yea... *sigh* oh well... nvm... you can't get everything your way even when it's your b'day... oh yea... 2 morons stayed up to countdown my b'day.... but thnx... i appreciated it... lol....so yea... as i was saying... so we were suppose to go to j8 after and catch the 3.50pm "the island" movie... but yea... the movie is like 2 hrs and 30 mins long so yea... we were like omg... nvm... so we didn't watch it... and yea... we shop around j8 for like 3 over hours... god... i know it's crazy... i mean... yea... you must be thinking.... there's nothing at j8 at all... what to shop for... lol... but bcos of our boliaoness we were able to shop for so long... hang around here and there... buy stuff... bought dan a wallet paid 10 bucks for it... it's converse... black and white... it cost like 17.90 actually... but yea... she wanted to pay somehow... so i paid 10 bucks only... god... dan you make me feel damn bad man... lol.... right.... ok... so yea... and we walked around and saw that 160th anniversary of the STRAITS TIME... sth like that... hmmm.... ain't this mrs steven favourite???!!! she should go to see and admire all the pics.... like the dutch gurl we learnt about in history and the bombing... with all the blood.... gross i know but kinda cool... haha i'm a sadist.... lol... we walked around... took neos as usual... lol.... oh yea... i need a handphone pouch desperately!!!! those who haven't got me a pressie... *hint hint* lol... was just kidding... hmmm... then after walking here and there in and out of stores like 77th street, 37 degrees, bodyshop, bum equipment.... BORING... then after we went to delifrance bought one ice blended chocolate... share it amongst me, cher, dan and lyn... lol... so stingy... but nvm...
went to dinner at jack's place and ate steak, with lobster soup and ice cream!!!! so filling... goodness... all the calories.... i'm gonna go fat... i gotta go on a diet again... sigh.... hmmm.... kks... i gtg now... byeee!!! love ya pple.... peace out.


for you'll die```
* dan- let's go shopping man.
* cher- our band rocks.
* gretch- nvm... we'll go k and also watch movies!!!
* kim- you're grounded*sigh*
* shar- don't wanna go arcade man.
* 2 morons- thnx for staying up and wishing me happy b'day.

we went out today... me, gretch and cher
we are like suppose to watch "fantastic 4" cos it's like just 1.60
so cheap!!!! but we didn't get to watch it at last...
cos it's already sold out... lol... too bad man...
*sigh* all because all our mums curse us....
"you gals can't get the ticket for sure..." like whatsoever man....
god... i'm like so not in a shopping mood... i know it's surprising ain't it...
cos i'm like a well-known shopaholic... lol....
well cos i wanted to watch that freaking movie!!!!! Fuck man...
oh well... i mean who don't wanna watch a movie for just 1.60
sigh.... so yea... we had pastamania... i ate beef bolognese as usual... my fav... lol
yea... i had ice lemon tea... not gonna risk drinking coke... so much sugar... calories...
lol... my bmi is like 18.5... omg.... so fat!!!! sigh... have to lose more weight man... cher is like damn thin can... not fair... so yea... i told my mum that i don't wanna go for cath class cos i wanna do my homework with my friends... right man... as usual... i was lying... lol... we were shopping... first, we went to herren... nth much there... went into that ripcurl shop... and came out empty-handed... i really hate it... when going shopping... must buy at least sth... i can't believe it just another 1 more week before the gss is over!!!! i'm freaking out... haven't really done shopping... god... i've got like no time at all man... all because of our stupid english teacher piling us with compos and compres... Fuck man... oh yea... gretch brought her harry along... madness....
hmmm... gretch and cher are totally mad... they told me that they are getting me a bikini for my b'day... omg... and yea... they did btw... how embarassing...
so yea back to it... so yea... we went to paragon... "toy r us"
so funn!!! i never went to toy r us for like a million years...
i really do feel like a child when i went to toy r us...
we were singing to this song....
" i'm going to zoo,zoo,zoo. how about you,you,you. you can come too,too,too. we're going to the zoo,zoo,zoo" lol... so pathetic... we were like moving to the tune with our puppets!!! fun!
oh yea... then we made our way to fareast... they tried to be funny and i was dragged into
sheer romance... and forced to try out the bikinis... god... it's like so embarassing can....
so yea... i got a bikini for my b'day... great... it's pink and brown...
we got cher a bag for her belated b'day pressie... lol...
oh yea... and i bought 3 hoops... pink, silver and black! 3.50 each...
after, we went back....
fuck man... i didn't go to HIS house! *sigh* i don't know if it's something to be happy about or sadd... i cna't make up my mind but i still love HIM....
For you i'll die
*gretch and cher-thnx for the b'day pressie *sarcastic*
*HIM- my mind is blank
*shar- right thnx alot man... every bikini must have pink in it
*mum and dad- whatever!

today i decided to suggest a super good idea to all my friends.
i wanna form my rock band or you can say my band....
i told gretch, chris, cher, kim and shar about it...
to my surprise, they are all into it!!!! god....
so yea... our band is called, "accidentals"
rocks right? yea... i wrote out one song called " livin life on my own"
guess it's kinda cool but i haven't created the tune yet... lol...
maybe later... no inspiration... lol
sigh... very bored
i got another problem now in my life
i drop alot of hair everyday...
god... it's like so scary...
when i comb my hair there'll be alot of hair on the comb
then... also alot of hair on my pillow...
and when i wash my hair...
god.... and all my friends are so insensitive...
they told me to go to beijing 101...
thank you... that's very helpful *sarcastic*
hmmmm... that's about it... oh yea...
mr william chan you got a very unique way of falling asleep...
very hilarious!!! she bangs! lol... i'm so darn mean la... who cares...
i gtg now... byeee! take care dearies! *muackz*

For you i'll die
*cher- happy birthday gurlfren!!! i love you lotz! you go gurl! *muackz*
*gretch and dan- i know you gals are very excited about the new harry potter book
*kim- you better learn how to play the guitar!
*shar- you should start learning how to play the drums!!!
*chris- let's write more songs yea?

god... my tummy hurts like hell... i'm feeling so weak all over... ok not really but...
i'm not as hyper than my usual self...i'm fooling around with my hp... recording songs...
taking pics... crapping with my bluetooth...i can't wear it properly... lol....
it doesn't fit my ear properly... i kinda give up... i don't really need a bluetooth after all... i'm just a student anyway... my handphone ringtone is "ass like that" lol... it's super loud man... almost deaaf... sms alert is "don't phunk with my heart"... super loud too... almost got a heart attack... lol... my sis scolded me for that... lol... too bad felicia... she said i copied her... right felicia... whatever to you...

hmmm.... i'm bored... to think that i actually miss school... this is getting crazy... i wanna be at school now for choir... really... lol... i know it's insane... but yea... more fun... lol....
i'm loving my hp my new bf... gtg now... lol... i've recorded like 17 songs so far and taken about 6 pics... lol... crazy... byee for now..

today's kim's b'day!!!!
ok it kinda suck la today...
went to sji band concert...
it's not as good as it's like suppose to be...
i shall not say why but yea...
today i learnt sth really shocking...
someone likes our b'day gurl....
hmmmm....
who ah??? lol...
right... i shall not be mean and say who...
cos i'm like so nice and so loyal... lol...
right... i promised that person so yea... can't tell anyone....
the band concert is like so funny...
the song that the were playing sounded so familiar... but we just couldn't guess it...
so after they finish they told us it's the theme song of the incredibles...
and me, kim, cher were like "ohhh..." it was damn loud... our "ohhh..."
god... so embarassing... everyone turned towards our direction... lol...
oh wells... nvm.... hmmmm... cher's like so right... all the guys who were there are either good looking and attached or ugly and unattached.... lol...
i'm so mean... but i guess so far it's kinda true... cos i didn't see any good looking guys there...
*sigh* but nvm..... it's ok to be single for now.... at least.... lol...
hmmmm.... cos you'll like really go crazy over the person you like...
can't eat... can't sleep properly... thinking about that person like every second...
you know who i'm refering to you... please for god's sake GROW UP!!! GET IT OFF YOUR MIND!!!! CONCENTRATE ON YOUR STUDIES INSTEAD!!!
ok... i've done my part for scolding you. yes... i'll try to help you out... but you gotta be confident of yourself too... get it?! sigh... you'll nvr get it....nvm... i give up...

haha!!!!
Biggest news int the school!!!
the teacher who sat in our class is like a mix breed man....
he looks william hung and bernard chan!!!
hilarious man!!!
so chinafied!!!
he was speaking perfect chinese....
hahahahahaha...
this makes him seem more william hung man!!!
She bangs!
"i did my best and i've no regrets..."
right....
i was the one who spread it around the class...
me and kim!!!
what brilliant minds man.....
geniuses!!! right....
so funny!!! we were like laughing till our tummy ache so badly...
the whole class just can't help but agree...
i mean... it's so true what....
hahahaha... not much homework today...
went for tuition.... with doreen... had lunch with cherlynn, lyn and doreen...
haha... we all got along quite well... went late 3.30... haha... we were slacking as usual...
hahaha so mean... and we were so tired... didn't even listen during class....
i gtg now... will fill you in with more details.... byeee!!!

Descriptive compo on bus ride

As I anticipated, a loud deafening bell chimed, it was time for dismissal. Immediately, I stuffed my books into my school bag in the speed of lightning. Leaving the school, I made my way to the bus stop. The afternoon was cool, with a breeze lingering here and there. The leaves were brilliant in the slanting sunshine, and the air carried the faint scent of smoke.


The bus stop was as usual, filled with a sea of blue. I elbowed my way through the crowd in search for a seat. Unfortunately, it was already so packed and stuffy that it was almost impossible to breathe. Let alone to find a seat. After what felt like eternity, the bus finally arrived. Along with the other schoolgirls, I crammed into the bus.


As I got up the bus, I noticed that it was already packed. There was barely enough room for respiration and the air was filled with the stench of sweat. The bus was filled with loud laughter and different tones of voices. Some were gossiping excitingly while others were just chatting very enthusiastically. Unfamiliar faces were found everywhere.


As I glanced through the lively crowd, I spotted a guy ostracized at the corner at the back of the bus. His eyes were dull and lifeless. There was no expression on his face; his messy black hair glistened in the sunlight. His face was as white as porcelain. It looks as fragile as crystal. His lips were thin and it was as red as blood. It curled up in disgust when the noise level increased. He mumbled something silently, barely audible. Suddenly, I saw tears stinging around his black eyes. He seemed to be on the edge of tears. He stubbornly fought it back insisting that he should not be shedding any tears.


Admiring his courage, I shifted my glance onto a middle age woman. She was rather plump and short. Her face was shaped like a ball with a wide grin across her face.
She was dressed up like a Christmas tree. Her hair was dyed in red, wildly grown into a bob. Big dangling earrings draped down her ears. Her long dress was floral, colored in red and green. It swept the ground every time the bus jerked.


Finally, I reached a familiar bus stop. I squeezed to the doorway and tapped with my ez-link card. Before I alighted from the bus, I glanced back to the lonely boy. Much to my surprise, he caught my eye and stared oddly. Then slowly the cold expression changed. He forced a grin at me and I smiled back stupidly. I turned away and almost immediately looked back. He grinned even wider and then I finally realized that he was my neighbor from 10 years ago.

now... i'm stuck at home...
alone in the room...
with no one to accompany me...
besides the whole pile of homework that is waiting for me to complete it...
not to forget this computer and my precious handphone...
thanks for keeping me company crazydude... lolx...
almost all of friends are out today... watch movies... shopping... *sigh*
so... basically today... i've one ambition...
to finish my damn homework... so much to complete... so dead can...
crap... yesterday was so messed up...
went to cath class... it's like so empty man...
ryan our teacher didn't come... only francis....
poor francis.... he just can't teach us....
nobody listens... the boys were making so much noise...
all the girls were exceptionately quiet... wow... ain't it surprising?
even me... i didn't really talk... was like smsing throughout the lesson...
keenan's right... i use my handphone in class like nobody's business... lolx...
one of my friend thought that i had sore throat or something cos i didn't talk...
so francis is like totally hopeless... eventually... he ended class real early...
record time man... only 46 mins... lolx... crazy....
well... in the evening... i went out for dinner as usual...
at auntie alison's mother's house... and yea... all the nieces and nephews went...
hmmm.... so the first daughter has two girls... all grown up...
sarah the oldest is like in university 1 in london... so she's back now since there's summer vacation... she's really friendly... yea... i like her basically... she shared with me stuff.... about how's it like to be in choir... she used to be in choir too.... in secondary and jc...
so when she went to london she didn't spend much money...
everything there's like so ex... lolx... she had to shop for the cheapest food even....
poor her... even thought they are damn rich she had to scrimp and save...
wow.... her sister is from vjc... didn't really talk to her...
the second oldest auntie has two sons....
the first son is secondary 4... he's from acsi... need not take his o levels this year... cos he's in the ib program... not ip but ib... don't know what it is either... lolx... he's like so talented... can play the piano and the guitar... so cool man.... and because he's self motivated he bothers to find scores to learn more songs... wow... i really admire him.... if only i can be like him... and yea... he even bothers to sign himself up for courses to learn french... god... and yea... he plays tennis... not sure of his cca but yea... he's basically well rounded... a guy that girls will want... but he's just not very good-looking... the second son who is our age is from victoria... he's unlike his brother... more slack and stuff... very funny... he always complain to his mum... very immature... lolx... oh well.... he plays the guitar too... learn from his brother... much better looking... not hardworking but he should be smart... cos he can go to victoria... lolx... he's in track... that's what i heard from his mum... cos i was sitting with my mum and yea... his mum was like talking to my mum... about her sons and stuff... really funny... their mum is so strict man... don't allow the sons to go out during school days.... wth... i know... at that rate i will be dead by now... lolx...
the third oldest daughter is auntie alison... married to a british man... no kids...
fourth is not married... single...
fifth has one son and a daughter...
the son is sec 1 and the daughter is p6...
her husband what i heard from my parents is not very good...
he has a mistress something like that...
the sixth has one older son and two daughters...
the son's name is shawn... 21 yrs old... in saf... builds and creates air crafts... rather good looking... spikes hair and all that... wow.... exactly... but too old man... so sad.... bet he has a girl friend... i heard that he's probably going to perth next year... cos the government is sending him there... for what i'm not that sure... well that's the whole family... hmmmm.... who i like.... i won't say... but my friends will know for sure....people like dan, cher, mich...
scandalous... can't type some stuff here... if not it'll spread...
my birthday's coming!!!!!!
PEOPLE!!!! take notice yea... lolx... in another 17 days.... i'm gonna have a count down...
sigh.... i got to go complete my homework.... there's more to share about... later...
i know you love me, beat. lolx... i copied from the book "gossip girls"...
peace... love ya all!!! byeee.... take cares!!! <3

I just LOVE youth day!!!
It rocks man...
i wish we could have it next year again...
so fun man...
the disco and all that sort...
singing and dancing like mad...
it's totally insane...
everybody were like dancing crazily...
it's so cool...
shaking to the groove and the beat...
it's just awesome...
so funky!!!
screaming at the top of our lungs...
and cheering each other on for the competition...
of course most importantly our TEACHERS...
for putting up this wonderful event and also for taking up so much courage for dancing infront of us and entertaining us...
hmmm..... we started school with mass...
then after we had our DISCO!!!!
noisy, loud and deafening...
but yea... ain't this what a disco is all about?
oh well... we spent a long time in there... then went out for fresh air... cos it was so stuffy and hot... so yea... went for our free lunch...
then went back to dance again...
real cool man...
thou our class didn't win but yea...
it was fun!!!
gretch my mommy represented us...
Go gretchie. go gretchie. go gretchie.
that's how we were cheering for her...
i know it's lame but yea...
hmmm.... fun, fun and fun.
this is what exactly today is like!!!
no lesson just play, party and crap around!!!
and not to forget... wear t-shirt and jeans to school...
this is what exactly we should be doing...
lolx... a very good example... of what all schools in singapore must follow...
IJ rocks man!!!
next year... our school will kinda be like ACSB...
we'll need to use our EZ-link card to buy food...
so cool!!!! *yayness*
just can't wait to go to the new school!!! ;]
after school went out to novena for lunch at long johns...
i ate meat today when i'm not suppose to!!! shit man... crap...
then after we went to orchard... far east to shop for a while...
take neos as usual... didn't buy anthing this time... cos i'm broke... crap....
well... i had tuition for chinese... i was late once again...
guess why???
i was still at orchard!!!
lolx... bad gurl... i know i am...
well... my usual excuse: "the bus was late... " or " i missed the bus so yea..."
lameness... but it always works for me man... lolx... gullible people!!!
well that's about it today... fun and fun!!! ;)
love you guys out there... peace out!!!
PS: Priscilla goh my dear daughter... once again!!! "Happy birthday to you!!!"
hope you enjoyed our surprise for you today!!! i love you lotz and yea may all your wishes come true!!! *cough cough* lolx...

sigh... i haven't really been blogging daily....
cos too much homework... choir.... school...
so busy... goodness.... oh well... that's life...
useless to complain anyway... on tuesday it was so fun!!!
during science lesson instead of like doing our experiment we were like throwing ice at one another... lolx... and also putting ice onto one another's shirt... so sick and wet...
but it's really fun... i'm like so unlucky... cos like my friends all pick on me...and put the ice into my shirt.... more than 9 times man... lolx.... but come to think about it... it's really fun... i enjoy it alot man... oh and cherlynnn and gretch came to my house to do their chinese project... fun again!!!we did something really bad to gretch... we are so mean... sorry i can't tell what it is... but it's very nasty... it's for us to know and for you guys to find out... lolx... oh well... we were really guai... we did not blog this time... lolx...
on wednesday....
tym told us the real grouping for our science... and we just found out that me, gretch, cher and ofelia are like not in the same group... guess who's fault is it again... i shall not say it... but yea... once again... it's her fault... so basically... we are like so shocked and of cos we were all exsaperated... i mean like we kinda did the project already... we discussed like what we want to do... and then she's like oh it's not good enough... i mean... what the hell!!!!
i'm so pissed man... seriously... and this made my dear gretch, my mom, cry...shit her the stupid teacher!!! Gretch i love you!!!! that's so heart-rending man... i really want to be in the same group as gretch for science project... so devastating...
and also... i had choir... ms tham came... we practised singing... and yea ms tham said that we sing really good... oh i'm so happy... lolx... yea... and also she told us something very shocking... we were all so exhilarated!!! hmmm... then choir prctise end about like 5.30pm but then mrs low had to talk to us about stuff... then finished about like 6pm... after i had to stay back for comm meeting until like 6.40pm.... plan and plan... so fun!!!!
after that... i went for my cousin's party... it's his 6 birthday... i got him chocolate... lolx... bought it with the chocomania tickets... lolx... too bad man... oh well.. at least i care about it... lolx... right.... i went home about 9 something...
finally it's about today... hmmm.... i had science in the morning and yea... the bell didn't ring... so we didn't know that assembly was about to begin... when we realised we rushed out of our class and yea just grab our books...and yea... when we were like out of the class... kim noticed that i took the wrong book... instead of taking my science sec 1 text book... i took my d&t book... god... how stupid man.... lolx... cos both book are like the same size... so i just grabbed one... lolx... lameness... i know... my friends were all like laughing at me... oh nevermind them.... then yea... during pe we were suppose to run 12 rounds... but instead of running i was like totally slacking... walking... jogging... joking around with my friends... lolx... then i said i had stitch so jess was like where's lilo... lolx... lameness.... we checked our weight today... and yea... i grew 1cm!!! i know it's pathetic but yea... yayness!!! lolx... lame... i lost 3.5kg!!!! yayness!!!! the dieting thingy is defintely working!!! but not very good... but who the hell cares man... we also played volleyball...
oh yea... hmmm... me and kim were like betting if our lit teacher will be present... and yea... i lost the bet... wth!!!! but nvm.... i'm like suppose to dress terribly tomorrow for youth day... but nvm... it's terrible enough... the stupid dress code... can't wear racerback.. can't wear sleeveless... can't wear skirts that are above our knees... god who the hell will have those... i mean like mostly people don't wear skirts that are knee length... but usually above knee... god... and also can't wear slippers, heels... only can wear sneakers and sport shoes... *sigh* i'm most likely going to wear a t-shirt and jeans... then sneakers... and carry tote bag....
cant really go out tomorrow...only for short while... maybe for lunch... *sigh*
i shan't really care... let nature take it's course... lolx... i know it's lame... gtg do homework...
byeeee.... love ya pple!!!

today's like the first day of school for semester two...
hmmm... i'm like kinda happy and sad...
happy cos i can see all my friends again....
sad cos no more going out as often, got to study hard, alot of homeworks!!!!
SHIT! *sigh*
so unfortunate....
at the moment i don't think i'll be able to concentrate on my studies...
those who knows why SHUT UP!!!
hopefully i'll get over it...
stop brooding over a stupid person...
i know this is kinda crazy... i slept at about like 1 plus yesterday...
to cut out all the english articles... at least i cared about my work...so proud of myself...
but i did not write anything... oh well...
surprisingly, mrs steven did not scold me...
in fact she gave those who did not finish their homework to complete it by next week on tuesday... how nice of her... maybe for a change i guess...
goodness gracious me... i'm typing in perfect english... with no short forms... and i did not type any "lolx..." haha... gretchen lee!!! I'm typing in perfect english... you must have been really proud of me... oh yea... i'm suppose to be like doing my homework... i got to go now... byeeee!!!!
MUACKZ PEOPLE!!!I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Those that tried to cheer me up... thanks for being there for me always no matter what... :)))

IT'S THE END OF ME!!!!
i'm like walking corpse now... with no heart, emotion n life...
i'm DEAD... so broken hearted... i feel like shit....
i just hate myself so much... wishing that i could take my own life...
i know it's stupid and very insensible...
but it's the only way i can do in order to forget about you...
maybe even after dying i may not be able to forget you...
cos i love you too much...
god... i just can't stop thinking about you...
i thought what i have done now seems to be the best solution...
but it seems that i've made the situation worst...
cos i've just realised how important you are to me and that i can't live without you by my side...
now i feel so lost and confused without you...
you are like my gurdian angel guiding me through my life....
Fuck! this is what i want you to know...
i'm so pissed... i really do feel like an idiot but yea... at least i've said what i want to say...
my heart is still tied up in a knot...
bleeding painfully...
i need you in my life...
to mend my bleeding broken heart...
*tears of frustrations and regrets*

To love or not to love?

if loving u makes my heart bleed then i think i'd better not love u....
cos it hurts too much and i can no longer stand it....
i thought after loving u i'll change into a better person...
boy i was wrong... it was in fact e biggest mistake i've ever made....
how naive was i to think tt it'll work for between e two of us....
i really hate myself for lovin u....
thinkin back abt e happy memories tt we have spent tgt i giggled stupidly...
wishing tt i cld go back to e past when we use to lie on e grass under e stars.....
counting n recounting the stars again....
my love for u is lik e wind... u cant c it.... but u can feel it....
but no matter wad... i nvr regretted knowing u....
u hav made e biggest impact in my life....
u were e one who told me e true meaning of love....
i really cant help but feel tt i'm so in love with u...
here in ur arms i feel so protected, so secure...
i love the way u look at me....
it seems as if u cld read wadeva tt is at e back of my head....
but when everything seems to go so smoothly sth has to happen....
nw i seem so lost without u by my side....
all i need u to noe is tt i still love u...
n tt i always will continue lovin u...
(lolx... it's abit exaggerated... well actually it's for fun... had nth better to do... so yea... it's basically jst crap....)

today's like so fun!!!!!
i went to cineleisure to meet my cuzzies at 11am but it was delayed cos of e stupid rain n also one of my cuz woke up really late.. lolx... yea... den we watch a movie....
actually we were suppose to watch 'initial D'... cos my cuzzies wanted to watch....
but thank god we didn....
cos it was lik nt showing at cathay... dunno y.... but yea....
so we booked for tis retarded show 'be wif you' or is it ' be wif me' hmmm... nt tt sure but it's sth lik tt... lolx... oh wellz.... but at last we didn watch it cos we managed to change e tix to 'man of the house'... e lady was nice enuf to help us wif e changing of tix... lolx...
oh wellz... 'man of the house' is really hilarious!!!! it's really good!!! vry funny... i cldn't stop laughing!!! lolx... yea... but e show's lik at 5 n it was lik jst 12 sth... so we went to eat at pasta maina cos we haven't even ate.... i ordered baked rice... but i didn finish it cos e rice seems uncooked... n yea it's kinda gross... lolx... yea aft eating... we went to 'bits n pieces'... actually we wanted to buy a ring n den engrave our names on it... but den we thot it looks ugly on our fingers... e ring i mean... so instead... we bought a pendant which was lik one bit of e jigsaw puzzle... kinda cute... really... n yea we wanted to engrave our names... but den e shopkeeper said tt we had to go to wisma for e engraving of names cos they didn hav e machine to engrave names on pendants... they only had for rings... den we bought earrings... all e same design but only diff coloured... so aft we made our way to wisma n told e lady how we wanted it to b... oh yea... it cos bout 13 bucks e pendant... lolx... quite cheap i guess...
so we had to wait for lik an hr before we collect our engraved pendants... so we hanged around... went to forever 21, op n den finally got a black top frm F women.... i got e same design as my cuz only tt hers was white while mine's lik black... cost 19 bucks... lolx... oh yea... den aft we collected our pendants n went to heeren... lolx... shop around.... lolx... mum gave me 50 bucks so big deal... it's her money i dun feel a pinch... walk arounf heeren... but kinda bankrupt so cant buy much... lolx... we took neos... n yea tok crap lik if we wanted a bf... n stuff lik tt... at 5 we went to watch ' man of the house'... it end bout lik 6.50pm... went to take neos again...lolx... den went to tp interchange n my uncle pick us up to hav dinner at his house... lolx... came back abt lik 10 sth... so fun n tiring.... *sigh* i still havent' really shopped properly... lolx... tmr's e last day of e hols!!! so sad.... i'm lsft wif e newspaper article... all e rest r all done!!! gtg nw...byeee.... <3

gretch: ok. here i am in beat's house. we're supposed to be doing our science project, but obviously we're failing. so. we've decided to do a commentary column of some sort!!!!! ok, this is my idea, beat is sitting next to me with a blank look on the stupid face.


beat: go n die gretch... kks... let's cont'd... wif our topic... gretch.....


(disclaimer: from thus forward it would be unnecessary to type in our names, because it's SOOOO obvious that I'M the on with the proper spelling and proper punctuation while beat is the one with the spastic uncomprehensible english.)


YES YES!!! of course, we shall continue with the topic. so, what do you think being retarded is supposed to signify?


beat:hmmm.... u represent all e retarded people in e world... lolx... dun worry i guess it's sth gd... cos u r lik a leader.... in an endearing way.... (i learnt tt frm gretch btw...)


beat doesn't know what a disclaimer is. ANYWAY, yes, i am extremely intelligent. in an endearing way HOR.


beat: wad gd eng... i'm speechless... no comments...


thank you thank you thank you. i would like to thank my parents for giving me the perfect genes that everybody wants. and also for making me so endearingly retarded. THANK YOU MOTHER AND FATHER!!!!!!!!! *blows flying kisses*


beat: so back to e topic... retardedness.... hmmm.... bein retarded... is it a gd thing or a bad thing? let's rite out e pros n cons! (i learnt tt frm mrs steven)... lolx...


uhhh. right. (refer to my own blog on my "lolx" comment.) i think retardedness is good because isn't that what's entertaining you now? my ability to be oh so retarded, yet oh so endearingly amusing at the same time? i rest my case. this debate no longer needs a discussion.


beat: fine.... i hav no comments den... i kinda agree wif e oh so gorgeous gretch... *cough cough*
u got to noe e story behind y she's called gorgeous... lame... totally e opp... lolx... joking... gretch u rox my world!!! i love u!!! yes... retarded is kinda good... cos it entertans u...


*beat leaves to close the door, thus enters cherlynn*


HI CHER!!!!!!! ok i'm being lame.


cher: you are forever lame. but being lame is GOOD!


AH HAH!!!!!!! and being lame is also under the category of being retarded right??? of course i'm right. i always am. i am also always very sarcastic too, in case you haven't noticed.


*cher and beat are engrossed over beat's mom's literature choices. "WAH SO HIP AH!!!" goes the oh so surprised cher*


beat: whatsoever gretch... we r all sarcastic... it's gd for everyone... sarcasm roxs!!!


you know why you're all sarcastic? because you are all MYYYYYYYY offspring, whether children, grandchildren or great-grandchildren. HENCE, you all bear the gene of being sarcastic, retarded, lame and poo loving.


beat: hmmm... i apparently am gretch's oh so loving daughter... unfortunately... i did nt get e intelligence frm her... why?????!!!!! hmmm... probably my dad is an idiot!!! lolx... opps!


hello. your dad is jessica, who is also rather intelligent. maybe i picked you up from the dustbin when you were a baby.


beat: Oh shut up!!! rite... i'm ur biological daughter... i mayb got e genes frm sumwhere out there... hmm... but... i hav other stuff tt's much better than u.... lolx... i'm smart!!! let's c... wat i'm gd at... gossiping... bitching... flirtin... rite... i dun flirt!!! lolx...


cher: maybe your mom had an affair long time ago. yeah i know you flirt. the genes from your mom.


beat: exactly... i've been suspecting too... but of cos i shall nt spread rumours bout it...


and who could i POSSIBLY have an affair with. HUH??? HUH??? *interrogating stare*


beat: hmmm... shall i say it out? mayb nt... it shall b kept as a secret... only sum noes... starts wif an 'e '... jst joking...


oh you know about earnest, my kindergarten sweetheart ah!!!!!!!!! *rolls eyes*


beat: yea... mayb... i dunno much bout ur history... only ur present.... which is.... e.....hmmm mayb nt... it mite b j...... my neighbour.... lolx... rite... he's too ugly to b looked at... it's nt justin... dun worry.... dun b offended... lolx... it's sum1 else....frm sji... i've jst gave u guys a big clue!!!


BAHHHH. you and your *cough* also. don't anyhow point fingers at me ok!!!! *gretch goes into market auntie mode*


beat:wwadeva!!!i dun hav any *cough* i'm well... nt sick dun curse me HOR.( i picked tt up frm retarded gretch) lolx... rite... lameness...


i decline to comment. ANYWAY, we really better get back to doing our project, or getting to it in the first place. SO, bye bye!!!!!!!! for now at least. tata everyone, and have a good 3 more days of the hols!!!!!! (well, it's only two and a half, but still...)


this is beat, cher and gretch signing off. *waves frantically*


(moral of the story: be retarded, lame, sarcastic, flirtatious and poo loving. most of all, be smart like us!!!!!!!! DIAO. we are so egoistic, aren't we.)

skool holidays r abt to b over... *sigh*
haven't even finish my hw...
i'm doomed.... haven't even read e papers.... hmmm...
let me c... it's lik 4 wks worth of papers....
i'm so dead!!!!
still lik on e 3rd pg of my math hw....
shit.....
oh yea... haven't gone out much....
wanna shop, watch movies n take neos!!!!
i'm afraid i'm unable to do tt....
HW i HATE u!!!!!
y must there b hw....
our holidays r ruined bcos of hw!!!!
it's e teachers' fault man.... lolx...
oh wellz... i better go do my hw nw if nt ill nt b able to go tis sat!!!!
byeee..... ;]

sigh.... today had choir comm meeting... it was actually quite funn!!!!
tok alot of crap bout wad to get n everythin...
we kinda racked e whole of macs!!!
lolx... we were talkin vry loudly....
yea.... so loud tt when we stopped u cld hear e silence...
so of cos we were e cause of noise pollution!!! lolx...
i love choir!!!! we rawk totally... lolx...
joke... but yea.... i really love choir!!!
so funn!!! but kinda sad... cos i got to leave choir meeting early for my tuition...
haven't finish hw!!! shit... i'm doomed.... lolx...
kks... gtg nw cos hav to do math... still a long way to go.... shit
really shit.... lolx... byeee... ;]

Love or Infatuation?
hmmm... quite a topic ain't it...
usually gurlz especially go around saying ,"oh, i'm in love..."
i really wonder... y dun they go,"oh i'm infatuated..."
weird....wellz... tt includes me... lolx... hmm....
well... in e first place do we even noe wad does love really means...
love is when u r willing to sacrifice everything for e person u love....
while for infatuation u get jealous when ur bf is hanging wif other gals...
u shld b able to trust him when u love him....
i dun dare to say it...
but in my opininon wad most pple r experiencing nw is wad u call, " infatuation"...
rather than ,"love".
so yea... mind ur words!!! say," i'm INFATUATED"....lolx.... nt in LOVE!!!
i'm proud to say tt i'm INFATUATED too... but wif who....
hmmm.... it's for me to noe n for u to find out!!!
those who noes dun open ur big, fat mouth!!! lolx....
peace out.... byeeee..... :]

Heyy pple... bored now... in thailand... just watchedhouse of wax... i noe tt we cant watch it in singapore... well.... too bad... lolx... don't really like it... actually... it's kinda gross... vry bloody... lolx... screamed throughtout e movie... lolx.... god.... don't noe y i weven want to watch it in e first place... lolx... well... i watched alot like love too... it's quite sick... sex here n there... lolx... yea... but kinda sweet thou.... lolx.... yea... tmr will b goin to shoppin if nt will b viewing house in thailand... my aunty's house... it's huge... lolx... wish i can own a house as big as tt... lolx... must wait til i grow up get a job n b rich!!!! den mayb will buy a huge land n build a house on it.... lolx... hmmm... n big ccars too!!! lolx... kks... gtg.... byeeee!!!! ;]